Of love, romance and Christmas

It's the season of giving and sharing
I am happy I have life, health and well being
I am forced to reminisce on how I spent last Christmas how I was consumed by love and romance
This year the love's distance


I do understand and will try my best not to make an issue of it
But I cant hide my feelings by saying just how much I wish you were here
Oh how beautiful that would be

I Dont Wanna Live Without Your Love

Thought it wouldn't matter
If we didn't stay together
And if it was over
Baby, it was for the better
I was thinking I'd be all right
'Til I thought it all through
Now I know that I ain't really living
If I have to live without you

I don't wanna live without your love
I don't wanna face the night alone
I could never make it through my life
If I had to make it on my own
I don't wanna love nobody else
I don't wanna find somebody new
I don't wanna live without your love
I just wanna live my life with you
With you

Guess I had to go away
So much I had to go through
Guess I had to lose you
To realize how much I love you
Can we make the fires burn again
Burn a little stronger
'Cause I've been alone, and baby
I can't be alone any longer

I don't wanna live without your love
I don't wanna face the night alone
I could never make it through my life
If I had to make it on my own
I don't wanna love nobody else
I don't wanna find somebody new
I don't wanna live without your love
I just wanna live my life with you

If I had to make it on my own
My life would never be the same
My love would never be the same
And I don't wanna live without your love

Chorus

I don't wanna live without your love
I don't wanna face the night alone (I don't wanna live)
I could never make it through my life
If I had to make it on my own
I don't wanna love nobody else (Don't wanna love nobody else)
I don't wanna find somebody new
I don't wanna live without your love
I just wanna live my life with you (Live my life with you)

Chicago

Here I Go Falling In Love Again

I swore i'd never get involved
Said i'd never ever fall in love
Cuz it hurt me once before
Would it hurt me ne more
Since then time has changed it's different now...
Hypnotized by you and wondered how
I fell into your arms, and i was captured by your charm

And here i go... fallin in love again
(falling in love again... fallin in love again)
Here i go... falling in love again
(falling in love again... falling in love again)

Lost and scared as i can be
Cant help thinking of the mystery
That i shared in my first love,
Like a pair of mismatched gloves
And now you've found your way into my world
Touched the woman deep inside the girl
Can you tell me if it's real?
I've forgotten how to feel

Chorus

Here i go falling in love again
The damage is already done
How can i ever turn my back on loving you
Here i go giving my all again
I'm ready to show what i feel
If you will, take this loving to your heart...

And now you've found your way into my world
Touched the woman deep inside the girl
Can you tell me if it's real?
I've forgotten how to feel

Here i go falling in love again
The damage is already done
How can i ever turn my back on loving you
Here i go giving my all again
I'm ready to show what i feel
If you will, take this loving to your heart...

Here i go... i'm giving my heart again
(fallin in love again)
Seems like a battle i just cant win
(here i go... )
Oh i'm in love and i cant win... (fallin in love again)
I'll be ready through thick and thin
(here i go... )
I'm falling in love again, i'm falling in love again
(falling in love again) i'm falling in love again
(here i go... ) here i go, here i go, catch me i'm falling
(falling in love again)
I'm lost without your love
Here i go...

One Voice

I Say A Little Prayer

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little pray for you
While combing my hair, now,
And wondering what dress to wear, now,
I say a little pray for you

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever,and ever, we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little pray for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little pray for you.

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

My darling believe me,
For me there is no one
But you.

Aretha Franklin

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3112

I still remember 3112 and always will
I will never forget it and will never try
It holds a special place in my heart
Because of you I really felt a part

Rocking on the Deck

With no real intention but to get out, I called Richard and asked "what are you doing later?" and in his usual self responded "nothing really, any suggestions?".

Of course coz you were a friend with whom I could go anywhere at anytime with no intentions. The Deck it was to be with Errol Lee my goo friend too.

Live entertainment+good food+good friends=good time.
Thanks Richie for answering my call

Aint No Sunshine

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and she's always gone too long
Anytime she goes away

Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gonna stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away


And I know, I know...


Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Only darkness everyday
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and this house just ain't no home
anytime she goes away


Bill Withers

The Woman in Me (Needs the Man in You)

I'm not always strong
And sometimes I'm even wrong
But I win when I choose
And I can't stand to lose
But I can't always be
The rock that you see
When the nights get too long
And I just can't go on

The woman in me
Needs you to be
The man in my arms
To hold tenderly
Cause I'm a woman in love
And it's you I run to
Yeah the woman in me
Needs the man in you

When the world wants too much
And it feels cold and out of touch
It's a beautiful place
When you kiss my face

The woman in me
Needs you to be
The man in my arms
To hold tenderly
Cause I'm a woman in love
And it's you I run to
Yeah the woman in me
Needs the man in you

Yeah the woman in me
Needs the man in you

I need you baby
Yeah yeah Oh baby...

by Shania Twain

Wishes

I want to be awaken each day by a gentle kiss
I want to wake up in the arms of someone who cares
I want to be surronded by love
I want only a few things

A song a day keeps the psychiatrist away



"Holding Back The Years"


Listen
Holding back the years
Thinking about the fear I've had so long
Will somebody here listen
Listen to the fear that's gone

Strangled by the wishes I begged for
Hoping for the unmade for
To get to me the sooner or later
Oh Lord

Ooh
Holding back the years
Chance for me to escape from all I know
And uh holding back the tears yeah
Cause nothing here is wrong, oh Lord

I've wasted all my tears yeah
(Ain't no reason, no)
Wasted all those years
(Too many, too many they just go by)
Nothing had the chance to be good, no, no
Nothing ever could, oh no

But I'll keep holding on
(Gotta keep holding on)
I'll keep holding on
(Never let go no, no, no)
I'll keep holding on
(Gotta keep holding on)
I'll keep holding on

Take your time, take your time
Suga take your time
Take your time
Take your time, take your time
Suga take your time
Take your time

Oh now
I've wasted all my tears
Wasted all those, those lonely, lonely years
Nothing had the chance to be good
Nothing ever could

I'll keep holding on
(Gotta keep holding on)
I'll keep holding on
(Never let go no, no, no)
I'll keep holding on
(Gotta keep holding on)
I'll keep holding on
Oh, oh, oh, oh

Gotta just keep, keep
Keep holding on
No matter how tired
Gotta just keep, keep
Keep pressing on
As weary as it may seem

Think it's a love song
Pull back, pulsate
Gonna keep holding on
Never, never, never let go
Oh yeah
I'll keep holding on


ANGIE STONE

A pleasant surprise

Its been more than 2 months and oh what a surprise it was
Being awaken by a lost familiar voice
Though under the weather I could not have felt better
When he knew he never had to introduce himself

Its a familiar voice, one I missed so much
At late nites and early morn
But on the other end of the receiver I heard the tune my heart wanted to hear

Oh how I wish it was not on the 'line'

I think I can always find a song to express my feelings at all times. And yes I have been singing the blues

All I Wanna Do Is Make Love To You

It was a rainy night
when he came into sight,
standing by the road,
no umbrella, no coat.
So I pulled up alongside
and I offered him a ride.
He accepted with a smile,
so we drove for a while.
I didn't ask him his name,
this lonely boy in the rain.
Fate, tell me it's right,
is this love at first sight?
Please don't make it wrong,
just stay for the night.

All I wanna do is make love to you
Say you will
You want me too
All I wanna do is make love to you
I've got lovin' arms to hold on to

So we found this hotel,
it was a place I knew well
We made magic that night.
Oh, he did everything right
He brought the woman out of me,
so many times, easily
And in the morning when he woke all
I left him was a note
I told him
"I am the flower you are the seed"
We walked in the garden
we planted a tree
Don't try to find me,
please don't you dare
Just live in my memory,
you'll always be there

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I wanna do is make love to you
I've got lovin' arms to hold on to

Oh, oooh, we made love
Love like strangers
All night long
We made love

Then it happened one day,
we came round the same way
You can imagine his surprise
when he saw his own eyes
I said "please, please understand
I'm in love with another man
And what he couldn't give me
was the one little thing that you can"

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I wanna do is make love to you
Say you will, you want me too

All night long
All night long
All night long
All night long

Reality

I must now face the world without
Will I be wiser, smarter not giving my heart to just one man?
How can I when I know not so to do
I did love you, I really did

I am tempted to ask one more try
But no without you I must go on
I confess I feel some sense of belonging
But just that….longing.

Phil Collins - Separate Lives

You called me from the room in your hotel
All full of romance for someone that you met
And telling me how sorry you were, leaving so soon
And that you miss me sometimes when you're alone in your room
Do I feel lonely too?

You have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
We can't go on just holding on to time
Now that we're living separate lives

Well I held on to let you go
And if you lost your love for me, well you never let it show
There was no way to compromise
So now we're living (living)
Separate lives

Ooh, it's so typical, love leads to isolation
So you build that wall (build that wall)
Yes, you build that wall (build that wall)
And you make it stronger

Well you have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
Some day I might (I might) find myself looking in your eyes
But for now, we'll go on living separate lives
Yes for now, we'll go on living separate lives
Separate lives

How is this girl today?

I really dont know how I am feeling today. In fact I am sharing in the feelings of a dear friend who is going through a similar experience. Distance divides, if only we knew why. But I resolve, my next guy MUST be within my geographical reach.

Loves Secret
William Blake

Never seek to tell thy love,
Love that never told can be;
For the gentle wind does move
Silently, invisibly.

I told my love, I told my love,
I told her all my heart;
Trembling, cold, in ghastly fears,
Ah! she did depart!

Soon as she was gone from me,
A traveler came by,
Silently, invisibly
He took her with a sigh.

If
- Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master;
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

Love

I tried to think about what love really is, having met someone who is head over heels about me and I believe that love is less a feeling than an action — it's the sustained ability to put someone else's needs above yours day after day, year after year.

Against All Odds
- Phil Collins

How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take

Take a look at me now

Love Never Fails

If it is true it will withstand all evil forces
True love is most difficult to find

Love Will Lead You Back
by Taylor Dayne

Saying goodbye is never an easy thing
But you never said, that you'd stay forever
So if you must go
Well, darlin', I'll set you free
But I know in time
That we'll be together
Oh, I won't try
To stop you now from leaving
Cause in my heart I know


Love will lead you back
Someday I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back

One of these nights
Well I'll hear your voice again
You're gonna say, oh, how much you miss me
You walked out this door
But someday you'll walk back in
Oh, darling I know
Oh, I know this will be
Sometimes it takes, sometime out on your own now
To find your way back home

Love will lead you back
Someday I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
I'm sure, sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It won't be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back

So I won't try to stop you now from leaving
Cause in my heart I know...oh yeah

Love will lead you back
Someday I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
It won't be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back

"Still I Rise"

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise

@ MAYA ANGELOU

R.E.M. - Everybody Hurts

When your day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your
hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Everybody hurts. You are not alone.

Today I resolved to not spend major time with minor people.

If there are people in your life who continually disappoint you, break promises, stomp on your dreams, too judgmental, have different values and don't have your back during difficult times...they are not
your friends.

To have a friend, BE a friend. Sometimes in life as you grow, your friends will either grow or go.

Surround yourself with people who reflect values, goals interests and lifestyle. When I think of any of my successes, I am thankful to GOD from whom all blessings flow, and to my family and friends who
enrich my life.

Over the years my phone book has changed because I changed for the better.
At first you think you're going to be alone, but after a while new people show up in your life that make your life so much sweeter and easier to endure.
Remember what your elders used to say, "Birds of a feather flock together." If you're an eagle, don't hang around chickens, chickens can't fly!


Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have always imagined. Remember, the WILL of God will never lead you where the GRACE of God cannot keep you!

Though I always fight for the truth, I've had to accept the fact that there are negative forces out there that are quite strong. But the Bible says love is stronger than death, and so I continue to have faith that the truth will emerge eventually. This song explores that questioning side of faith, when we wonder why bad things have to happen to us. But in the end, the lessons we learn, from both the good and the bad, only strengthen our spiritual nature.

LESSONS TO BE LEARNED

They say there's a universal plan
For every woman, for every man
I do believe there's a higher power
But in our darkest hour it's hard to understand
So we start to question, start to doubt
We lose faith in what life's all about

Why did the right road take the wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons to be learned

Don't give up, keep on looking deep inside
Let your heartbeat be your guide
ŒCause there's a gift, for those who keep believing
You'll find what you've been needing is right before your eyes
You'll hold the answer in your hands
Then you'll know, you'll finally understand

Why did the right road take a wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons to be learned

No matter how many times you stumble or fall
The greatest lesson is loving yourself through it all

Why did the right road take a wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons, there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons
Lessons to be learned

@Barbra Streisand

My heart will heal sooner than I think.

As the days go by I feel a sense of relief in my heart. It is finally over and though not rejoicing I feel some peace and comfort knowing I tried but this will just be an experience. I dont believe it was fair to have kept me hanging on. In our brains it ended quite sometime ago but our hearts kept saying one more try. I dont hear it saying that to me and I am happy. My brain and my heart are at one.

On a Pleasant Note

Today is Mark's birthday. He is quite a kool guy. Mark I wish you all the best and it was a thrill for me knowing I wished you happy birthday first. You have been a true friend and I appreciate our friendship and I am sure you know.

Remember to pick up your gift tomorrow (lol).

Today I had a chat...more like a cuss out with that once significant other.
He just doesnt matter to me anymore. Guess how could I hate him that quickly or dont care. What I will say is that there is a thin line between love and hate.

Thin Line Between Love And Hate lyrics

It's five o'clock in the morning and you're just getting in,
I knock upon a door, a voice sweet and low says.
(Who is it ?)
She opens up the door and she lets you in.
Never once does she say, where have you been ?

She says hold it, are you hungry, did you eat yet ?
Let me hang up your coat now.
And all the time she's smiling, never raises her voice,
It's five o'clock in the morning and you don't give it a second thought.

It's a thin line between love and hate,
It's a thin line between love and hate.

The sweetest woman in the world could be the meanest woman in the world,
You can make her be that way.
She might be holding something in
That's really gonna hurt you one of these fine days.

There you are in the hospital, bandaged from foot to head.
In a state of shock - that much from being dead.
You didn't think your woman could do something like that to you.
Didn't think she'd got the nerve, accidents speak louder than words.
Louder than words, louder than words, louder than words.

Come on baby, baby, you don't give a damn about me,

@ Annie Lennox

Love never had is love not lost.

During the two-year encounter we saw each other three times. It wasn't all that of a problem that we physically saw each other only thrice because we chatted on line everyday, spoke on the phone fairly often and the love remained vibrant.

It was online that I met him in very casual circumstances. We chatted for more than six months then finally we met in October 2001. We became real friends, very good friends infact. We had a lot in common.

Please note

Over the next few weeks, maybe months or even years I will pen the transformation of my life from love found to love lost and beyond. If you are interested keep visiting.

You have come into my life at the right time
I truly appreciate our friendship.

Buy Me A Rose
Luther Vandross

He works hard to give her all he thinks she wants
But it tears her apart 'cause nothing's for her heart
He pulls in late to wake her up with a kiss goodnight
If he could only read her mind, she'd say...

Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life
Now the days have grown to years of feelin' all alone
As she sits and wonders if all she's doin' is wrong
'Cause lately she'd try anything just to turn his head
Would it make a difference if she said, if she said...

Buy me a rose, call me from work
Open a door for me, what would it hurt
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things I need the most in my life
Now the days have grown to years of feelin' all alone
As she sits and wonders if all she's doin' is wrong
'Cause lately she'd try anything just to turn his head
Would it make a difference if she said, if she said...

And the more that he lives the less that he tries
To show her the love that he holds inside
And the more that she gives the more that he sees
This is the story of you...and me
So I bought you a rose on the way home from work
To open the door to a heart that I hurt
And I hope you notice this look in my eyes
'Cause I'm gonna make things right for the rest of your life
And I'm gonna hold you tonight, tonight
Do all those little things for the rest of your life

'Till I Can Make It On My Own'
Kenny Rogers


I'll need time to get you off my mind
I may sometimes bother you, try to be in touch with you
Even ask too much of you, from time to time
Now and then, Lord, you know I'll need a friend
And 'till I get used to losing you, let me keep on using you,
'Til I can make it on my own

I'll get by, but no matter how I try
There'll be times that you'll know I'll call
Chances are my tears will fall
And I'll have no pride at all, from time to time
But they say, oh, there'll be a brighter day
But 'til then I lean on you, that's all I mean to do,
'Til I can make it on my own

Surely someday I'll look up and see the morning sun
Without another lonely night behind me
Then I'll know I'm over you and all my cryin's done
No more hurtin' memories can find me

But 'til then, Lord, you know I'm gonna need a friend
'Til I get used to losing you, let me keep on using you
'Til I can make it on my own.

RePOST - First posted July 15, 2002

TO MY BOYFRIEND

I love despite your roving spirit
I adore despite you wandering ways
I crave for you despite my unseeming hunger
I will love you always

Passive Hope

"Tell me where your future is."
"What future?"
"The one that shimmers with infinite promise."
"It was lost by my apathy, by my weakness."
"By your own hand."
"Yes, riven by my own hand."
"Do you regret it?"
"I'm beyond that now."
"Have you wept for yourself?"
"There's nothing left to cry for."
"What will you do now, without your future?"
"Merely exist and be content."
"Where will that get you?"
"Honestly? Absolutely nowhere."
"Will that be enough to keep you content?"
"It has to be. There's nothing else."
"There has to be something more."
"There has to be, but there isn't."
"But why?"
"Because I can only half-live."
"And to half-live is to...?"
"Live life passively. Let the potential stagnate."
"Can't you do more? Can't you grow more?"
"The potential has already rotted. It can't be remedied."
"So there is truly nothing..."
"Yes, nothing but hope, hope for the next."
"The next generation."
"Where one is spoiled into rotting, the next won't be."
"And that is all that's left?"
"Yes. Passive hope."

Alli Panaginip.

Passage

This too shall pass and I should have known this from before
I have been taught, yet I fail to trust my judgement more
Your story was one of hope and I thought you wanted what your heart desired
Nope you wanted nothing, emptiness but you knew what was happiness
You wished you had a family life, a structured life but your thrust towards it was like a limb in the wind

We have been here several times before
But after this time there will be no more
I will take the pain, I feel no hate but I will keep wondering just why did I wait?
I want not to be the object of failure and from here on I will be out of sight
And I know in time I will be forgotten, but I do not grieve

Farewell my friend, it is really at the end
Yes it is as I can feel it deep within me
Don't tell me you are angry as in your moments like this I hear the truth
Live the life you want, hunt it with all you might, never give up cause you will achieve your just reward
And it is not too far away!

The Player's Handbook

He knows the rules and so he knows the game
He played it well
But I could always tell

to be continued

Why Do Men Lie?

I often wonder, why is it that a man will tell a woman a lie straight off the bat?
Is it a false I care and I dont want to tell you the truth else you will get hurt
Or is just that the ability to live a clean and honest life evades some of us more often than others?
Truth is I hate it. Dont create false comfort coz I know when you do.

Thoughts of Love

I've thought about the future and what it holds for me
A life of love and laughter that's what I'd like it to be.
With you close by my side sharing our life together
Building a home and family being in love forever.

When I think of you sweetheart my heart just swells with love
I cherish the very day we met I thank the Lord above.
I stand now by the waters edge sun dip's into ocean so blue
As dusk falls all around me my thoughts return to you.

© Ginny Bryant

A Letter from Heaven

The following poem means a lot to me. It was a personal note left by one who went on to higher calling:

Although I am no longer with you, Mine eyes no longer see,
I’ll be the strength to guide you, Your faith to still believe.
I’ll rest upon your shoulder Your angel flying high,
I’ll surround you in my unfolded wings, As comfort when you cry.

I’ll still see you through the bad times, I’ll still share in the good times too,
I’ll show you the hope and courage, That within yourself -- you never knew.
Though, I am just in spirit now, I’ll still walk within your soul,
For with your inner beauty I will always be in whole.

You’ll always be a part of me An everlasting love,
And until we meet again I’ll watch you from above.
Until that day we meet once more I hope you know it’s true,
You’ll forever be a part of me You’re everything I do.

So, cry not for I am gone for I am really home,
And I’ll look forward to that day when we’ll no longer be alone.
Until that day we find ourselves once more standing -- side by side,
I’ll rest here upon your shoulder as your love, your strength, your guide.

© Jill Eisnaugle ~ 5th February 2003

Remembrance

I will remember you for the good things you did
I will remember you for the good times we shared
I know you are resting in peace.

Lime Cay Bound

In a few minutes I will be soaking up the warm Jamaican sun
At Lime Cay where all I can have is just pure, clean fun
I haven't been there for some time and I really look forward to this trip
Its friendly there and peaceful too

On a day like today, its like a deserted island
Hardly anyone around and the water is peacefully quiet
It is almost undisturbed
No cares, no worries

I'll have some fun today
Fun I will have my way
To do what I want to do
However and whenever

Loneliness

We all get lonely once in a while
Inside we're depressed and try to smile
A smile don't work, depression gets worse
The idea of being lonely we try to nurse
When it gets so bad we can't think any more
We should think of the things we truly adore
Good times are there in the past of our lives
Whether it's with brothers, sisters, husbands or wives
If we have none of them just think of a friend
Remember a good thought, let happiness begin.

Remember we've had joyous times in our past
so the potential of happiness is plentiful in our present or future.
If we have to grab a memory from our past to make us happy,
at least it's something.


© Peter Coutermarsh June 28, 1994

Encounter

Do you come here often?
No just chillin
You seem quite at home
Actually I try to be comfortab;e wherever I go
I must tell you, you look great and you have a wonderful smile
(Chuckles) I have heard that so many times am beginning to believe it
I love that sense of humour
Thank you, from you can identify it says you may have one there too
Hmm intelligence
Dont try to flatter me please
No am just speaking the truth, you seem to be one smart woman full of fun
You're so kind
So why are you alone here
I told you just spending sometime with my self and somebody is changing that (smiling)
You dont mean that am sure

to be continued

If
by Janet Jackson

Sittin over here
Starin in your face
With lust in my eyes
Sure don't give a damn and ya
Don't know that I've been dreamin of ya in
My fantasies
Never once you looked at me
Don't even realize that I'm wantin you
To fulfill my needs
Think what you want
Let your mind free
Run free to a place no one dares to

How many night I've laid in bed excited over you
I've closed my eyes and thought of us a hundred different ways
I've gotten there so many times I wonder how bout you
Day and night
Night and day
All I've got to say is

[CHORUS:]
If I was your girl
Oh the things I'd do to you
I'd make you call out my name
I'd ask who it belongs to
If I was your woman
The things I'd do to you
But I'm not
So I can't
Then I won't
But
If I was your girl

Allow me some time to play with your mind
And you'll get there again and again
Close your eyes and imagine my body undressed
Take your time cuz we've got all night, oooh
You on the rise as you're touchin my thighs and
Let me know what you like
If you like I'll go
Down da down down down da down down
I'll hold you in my hand and baby

Your smooth and shiny
Feels so good against my lips sugar
I want you so bad I can
Taste your love right now baby
Day and night
Night and day
All i've got to say is

[CHORUS (2x)]

I've laid in bed excited over you
One hundred different way I've thought ya
Many, maaany
(day and night, night and day)
Allll I got to say is

[CHORUS (3x)]


Janet Jackson

Trust

Trusting is not easy from a distance
But its good to be skeptical from a distance
It's an easily abused space

Truth makes it easier
But half truths destroy the whole damn thing
Honesty aids and abets trust

Promises

I don't want to hear from you today
Cause your promised you would call yesterday
My understanding is stretched
My patience tested
I just dont want to hear from you today
Why?
Because it is better that way

Separation

My relationship with you started ten years ago
But that relationship in a very short time will come to an end
You have been more than a faithful friend
You have been so loyal, you have never let me down

You are always ready to go just about anywhere
It is a sad parting but we just have to go
I have not quite made up my mind yet
I keep delaying the separation but it is inevitable

Our love will not die no matter how hard I try
If you are to be of any value then we must part now
You will go on because you are strong
And you will bring joy and comfort to yet another's heart

An unusual post

It peeves me most when I go to the supermarket and to see these men with their wives or girlfiends, they browse and shop happily. Then when they get to the cashier, the woman stands aside and watch, the man then dips into his pocket having seen the price and pay. It is the tackiest thing I have ever seen. For Christ sake give the woman the money to shop. After all she is the one doing the menu planning or cooking the food. Is it a matter of trust? Use the credit card or the debit card then. Is it about social class? It is an eyesore!!

When?

It is not too much to ask
That this waiting game come to pass
Am almost at the end and I really need some strength
But one has to be practical

My heart is getting impatient

Will it change?

I am just tired of it
I am tired of sleeping by myself
Tired of going places alone
Am just fucking tired of it

Am tired of hearing I love you on the phnoe
Or hearing honey one day I will be home
Am tired of dating on the net
Am just fucking tired of it

A wish
At times I wish you never had to be so far away
Sometimes I feel like I cannot make it through another day
I keep wondering why does it have to be this way

Familiar Face

I am sure I saw Dave today
But it wasn't him, it was a flash of one just like him
I thought I saw Dave today, but it was the eyes of another who looked just like his

I will not see Dave today
Because he is too far away
Haven't seen him in a decade

My prayers are with you friend
And am sure your trials will soon come to an end
I will say a special prayer for you, not only because I saw you today

Black Heart

Colour my heart black because it is sad
It knows not love but welcomes pain
Searching for solace drives it mad
For my heart there is nothing to gain

It aches to know you have tricked me
Treated me like a fool, guess you thought it was cool
In the game of love there are no rules
After all love is made for fools

Reflection

I look in the mirror and see me
Woman
I see my trials
I see my test
I hate my failure
I treasure my success

I love me
I love who I see
She is strong, bold and resilient
Her patience short but understanding prevails
Ambitious
She achieves and she gives

Hate knows not my heart
A kinder spirit yet to be found
The peace in me beams
Am at peace with myself
I strive
Because am happy to be alive

She's sexy
Has a great smile
A fragile heart
A loving soul
Are her's to give - to keep
She is me and I love her

This is one of my favourite songs
It depicts love....that's why

YOU'RE HAVING MY BABY
(Paul Anka)
Paul Anka & Odia Coates - 1974

Having my baby,
what a lovely way of saying how much you love me.
Having my baby,
what a lovely way of saying what you're thinking of me.
I can see it
Your face is glowing
I can see it in your eyes
I'm happy in knowing...

That your having my baby,
you're the woman I love and I love what it's doing to you.
Having my baby,
you're a woman in love and I love what's going through you.
The need inside you
I see it showing
Oh, the seed inside you baby do you feel it growing.
Are you happy in knowing...

That you're having my baby,
I'm a woman in love and I love what it's doing to me.
Having my baby,
I'm a woman in love and I love what's going through me.
Didn't have to keep it
Wouldn't put you through it
You could have swept it from your life but you wouldn't do it.
No, you wouldn't do it...

And you're having my baby,
I'm a woman in love and I love what it's doing to me.
Having my baby,
I'm a woman in love and I love what's going through me.

"Memories"

I thought that with time
Thoughts of you would leave my head
I was wrong because we belong
Together forever

Curves

The curves are showing once more
The exercise and diet program working well
Soon all the unwanted fat will be gone in just a while

I take eight laps
Then I get on the mat
Situps, Abs and all
Yeah am feeling great

Spirit and all

Promise

I promise myself today
To take time out to do things for me
The little things that bring me great joy

Like tomorrow I will go to Mobay
A place I have not been for almost two years
Tho' business bound
I will find some time to go by Sam Sharpe Square
And hear the taximen speak

Mobay's lingo is different
The culture is very mixed
On my way back I will refresh my memory
Of Sociology coz that I will sit from 4 to 6

Longing

I long to sit and watch the moon rise
To drive to the country on a cold and rainy night
I miss getting sundrenched on the beach
Having playful times

I miss fun

I get all so caught up in other people's feelings about me
Maybe I shouldn't, maybe I should
But for now I will try just think about me
And do the things that pleases ME

Chauffeur


"Baby love you nuh want a chauffeur," he asked
"I would be more than happy to take you around," he continued
Ignoring my straight face he joked "a nice lady like you nuh fi drive yuself"
The light changed and I sped off

The Man I will Marry

My husband to be is you
You have shown just what love can be
To ride the waves of the good and the bad time
To make me love again as if I have never loved before

The man I will marry is you
You have unlocked my world and made me see
How beautiful it is to be loved and to love no less than I am loved
In you I have found a companion, a friend, a and the best lover of all times

I will marry you and have your child
Raise a family and be to you the wife you have always wanted
I know we will be happy as we have both pledged our lives to each other
And I soon I will wake up beside you knowing we have started the rest of our life together

Interpretation....is there a message?

I read a lot of everything and anything
Do I interpret any and just everything
Is there a hidden message somewhere
Hidden in what you write?

Tell me what your heart says

It seems like a childish dream to find love and keep it.
Love is not love if it is not true love
The pendulum swings and it is on the positive
Then it swings again and hangs over the minus sign

What is it that you really what?
Can you follow your heart?
Do you trust it enough to lead you?

Love in a Global Ecomony

Globalization has brought many changes. Sometimes we find ourselves on distant shores. For whatever reason we are not always lucky to fall in love with someone in the same city, state, or even country. The advent of 9/11 has brought with it
certain uncertainties. Travel has become a chore rather than a leisurely acitivity , and mixing that with the variables in a relationship brings its own problems.
So knowing all these facts. The question is how to make love survive in this "NEW WORLD".
Taking a clue from my dad. When you have found the right seeds to plant. Plant them with love, and water them. If they still won't grow then. Clone them and plant them someplace. If they still won't grow, plant your %$%# back in Jamaica . Get some manure and plant them in a Suburban area in Trelawny and ask the girl from Mount Moreland bush to water them.

You're Still My Man
- Whitney Houston

On the day that you left me
You said you had no regrets
There's a bond between us
That hasn't been broken yet
And the feelings between us
Will never disappear
How can you be far away
When your spirit's here

Chorus:
You're still my man
Nothing can change it
We still belong together
You're still my man
Nothing can change it
Our love will last forever

And the seasons of our love
Will always change I know
Maybe that's the reason
You felt we had to go
But soon you'll be missing me
Darling I know you well
There's a magic we share together
And no one can break that spell

Chorus:
You're still my man
Nothing can change it
We still belong together
You're still my man
Nothing can change it
Our love will last forever

I'll wait for you
The thought that keeps me going each day
Is I believe you still love me
I love you more than words can say

Chorus:
You're still my man
Nothing's gonna change it
Don't you know,
you oughta know we belong together
You're still my man
And nothing can change it
Oh baby oh darling you're in my heart forever

Cuz you're my man
Without you
Darling, our love at all
You're still my man
Nothing can change it
Don't you know you oughta know we belong together
Oh You're still my man
Nothing can change it
Oh baby oh darling you're in my heart forever
You're still my man
Nothing can change it
I'm yours, you know you're mine
You're in my heart forever
You're still my man Nothing can change it
Don't you know you oughta know we belong together
You're still my man...

Forever

When you said goodbye I knew it would not be for long
In my heart I know you will return to be with me forever
This love so strong, so real at times your kiss I can feel
Though you are miles away I can still see you face,
Hear your laughter and feel your embrace

My heart says forever and forever is what it means!

The Expectant Mother

Carrying his child she lies expectantly
Bringing a new life into this world is no folly
Conceived in love
With the blessings from the one up above
This life inside me is happy by the joy all around
And definitely, there is love abound.

WHEN I NEED YOU
A.HammondC.BayerSager

When I need you I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you Is only a heartbeat away
When I need love I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us
The telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I won't be travelling forever It's cold out
So hold out and do like I do
It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won't be travelling a lifetime
It's cold out so hold out and do like I do when I need you
When I need you I just close my eyes
And you're right by my side
Keeping me warm night and day
I just hold out my hand
Hold out my hand and I'm with you
All I wanna give you Is only a heartbeat away
When I need you

Honey I really love you and that will never change; you are special.

This thing called PASSION

The plant you gave me a year ago
Does nothing else but grow
I changed the pot today
Because in it, it could no longer stay

Our love cannot be contained
And our relationship never will be strained
If this plant indicate the strength of our love
Then blessings are overflowing from above

It will continue to grow
And this not only you and I know
Because our love has been shining
And it keeps me, you and everyone around us smiling

Ann

Love Letter

Hi Darling:

Love is a wonderful thing, I can feel your missing me and my heart aches because of your physical absence. But be reminded always that you remain in my heart forever.

You have made my life complete and I cannot imagine not loving you. Honey you are special and I deserve you and you me.

Let's keep the love alive and as strong.

Your forever girl

Neke

TO LOVE THE WAY WE DO

It takes understanding, trust and a commitment to be true
No half truths, holding onto the past and singing the blue
No desire to find somebody new or one to fill a temporary void
A willingness to share each other's dreams and help in whatever way possible to make them a reality

To speak about the little things and the big ones too
Be it politics or the colours we like best
Telling "you love" can never be heard often enough
Coz it will keep you together when things get rough

Don't put off for tomorrow what can be discussed today
Be frank and open in just about every way
Plan together and take all decisions based on what's best for "US"
Selfishness can certainly be the factor that will divide the "plus"

Be a partner, a friend, a lover and a companion
But friends are also important, a relationship will not survive on a union
Think positive about yourself and maintain that outlook on life
Beware other people will see the glow and try to take your husband or wife

So remain committed and keep the promise to be true!

I RESOLVE

I resolve:
To love you until your heart can take no more
To be loyal, faithful and true to you not just now but forevermore

I resolve:
To be your lover and friend
And my love for you, you will need not defend

We will be together to share the dreams we have
And spend a lifetime together - just as we have always wanted

You are my world!