Green Grass

The green grass of Waterkloof
The area in a certain era they dare not set foot
Now it provides comfort, a resting place
The centerpiece of their solace

The madames will not beckon
And on the grass I think they find peace
The house is already clean
The gardens pristine

No children
No families or friends
They left them all behind
In search of a means to an end

But will it ever end?
For generations since the land of the free
Their fortunes have turned but not much
Only now there is no pass and they can sit on the grass

Will You?

She looked in his eyes
And saw the longing
The twinkle that screamed 'I'm happy to see you'
And there was instant spark

Will you, she asked
Be the one to make me happy
Share my world?

Do I scare you
Are you sure you are up for this
What is it in me she wondered
That causes him to reach the way he does
For my hands
To hug my body the way he does

She is left wondering
Thinking
Wanting
Believing

To love again

My heart cries out to you
To make it joyous
To make me laugh once more
To make me grow excited at the thought of you

You have listened thus far
You make me smile
You make me laugh
You make me do things I had forgotten

You have claimed my heart
My soul
My being
You have claimed me

Am I scared I ask
How do I learn to love again
To be unrestrained
Be assured, loving you; loving me

The questions are many
The reasons are clear
I will love again in an old-fashioned way
I will give of myself and nothing less

I will not be held captive by my bitter past
For God knows why it didn't last
I have no regrets
I harbour no ill will
It was but for a time and time did not stand still

I will love again like there is no tomorrow
To do less would bring great pain
I will captain my heart
I will master my happiness
I will love you, the way it ought to be.

(c) Anneke 2010

Alone

How could it be
A lonely journey
A solace place
It's just me
Alone, once more

How could it be
I have so much
Wanting more
Grateful, yet unsatisfied
When will this longing end?

I return to myself
My inner strength
Gives me hope
Warms my heart
I'm not alone, anymore

(c) Anneke 2010

The Radical

Who the fuck you think you are?
Conform my ass
I'm no silly
I'm me

Conform?
That's not me
I speak my mind
As I would like
As I think
As I want to be

Status quo?
What's that?

I have the power to think
To express my own feelings
In the way I see best
With tact designed by me

I do not believe in command and obey
Let's discuss this
Let's reason
Hold a meditation

Believe me
I am the radical!

@ Annhot

And so I write

I find peace in the ability to express myself
To type the thoughts as they flow
My memory of a life
Of love
Of challenges
Of promises
Of pain
Of possibilities

I will write once again
As I express my innermost feelings
My love
My lust
My joys
My dreams

At times so incoherent
So confusing
I'm sad
I'm happy
I'm excited
I'm angry

And so I write
And write, once again

Kindred spirit

It's a place of solace
Indeed so cool
The silence is deafening
It is a lonely place

Light up the room
Rekindle the fire
Dreaming of the possibilities
As the sun sets

The star in the sky
The moon shining brightly
What reflection
Peace of mind

@ Anneke

Heart's Song

A melody of love
The chords of promise
What song shall my heart sing for you today?

You have written the melody and the rhyme
All that I am is written in a tune, so fine that is you
Play me a song of love.

2008 @ Anneke

The Soul

A war is waging in her mind
She craves for peace but
There is no peace of mind
Send her a miracle she begs
To quash this growing discontentment

The two are one
Part of her
They make up her world
She wants them to co-exist
Temper the anger
Calm the ego

Go easy, be gentle
Consume forgiveness
Shun resentment
Let peace hug your soul
Go forth in love.

Anneke @ 2007

Stranger

She sat and watched his face
All so strange with not even a smile in place
Did she know him?
Did he even care if she was there?

The distance was more than a mile
And it seems it will go on for more that just a while
Life throws you uncertain curbs
It will require great navigation for this one
2007 @ Anneke

Longing

The days are drab and grey
The nights are tense and lonely
Things arent that much fun anymore
Yet you remain the one I adore

I long to be hugged
To see the glee in your eyes
But you jaws are straight
Your eyes so fixed in another direction

It happens too often
What do I do now?
But allow you to go through this phase
I hope it's the last

Ann @2007

Kingston Waterfront

It's a longer route
But I just love to drive along the Kingston waterfront
The sights, the sounds, the people
A ship in the harbour
A plane taking off
Or a gull diving for a fish
What a beautiful sight

A lot of people make the waterfront their homes
Yesterday I saw a lady with two spliffs in her mouth
She was as easy as Sunday morning
Smoke blaring from her 'kitchen'
No care in the world
And yes, she is part of our world!

2007 @ Ann

The Human Seasons

Four Seasons fill the measure of the year;
There are four seasons in the mind of man:—
He has his lusty Spring, when fancy clear
Takes in all beauty with an easy span:


He has his Summer, when luxuriously
Spring's honey'd cud of youthful thought he loves
To ruminate, and by such dreaming high
Is nearest unto heaven: quiet coves


His soul has in its Autumn, when his wings
He furleth close; contented so to look
On mists in idleness—to let fair things
Pass by unheeded as a threshold brook:

He has his Winter too of pale misfeature,
Or else he would forego his mortal nature.




- By: John Keats

Happiness

I am so happy of late
It's amazing how the deepest sadness
Can be turned into lasting joy!

Today, I’m sad
Very sad
What I thought would be a lifetime bliss
Now turns out to be something I can only miss

Stupid me
For believing we would have been together until eternity
I thought our differences would always be worked out
But now you want out

I will take it like a woman
Brush myself off and face this world on my own once again
I am hurting, really bad
And that is the reason, the real reason, I’m sad

The Perfect Man

I do not believe in fantasies
But I do dream at times
And I cant help but wonder
If I could find the ideal lover

If for one moment I could
And everybody should
He would be no less than this

He must be extremely loving and kind
And intelligent enough to stimulate my mind
Tall and handsome would be so fine
And he should show me love all the time

Dont pick a fuss at the drop of a hat
Oh gosh I hate it when you whine
Never go to bed upset with me
And plenty love making is a guarantee

Be wealthy enough to take me on vacations
Fine dining, sporting and shopping too
Dont be so revengeful
Tit for tat is no 'all that'

I really dont require much of a man
Just the simple pleasures of life
That every human would be happy to have
And not sit and wonder when will I be crazy in love?

Heartbreak

If only you could see the tears my heart has cried
The loud bellows, begging you to stay
But my pride will not allow
It is your life and you must take control of it

If only we were able
To do practical things to deal with our little problems
But like me, you did nothing
Promises were not enough

You must go and though it is hard for me to accept
In time I will realize that this is just another step
Another phase in my life which will make me stronger
But 'til then the pain will linger

Before you kissed me only winds of heaven
Had kissed me, and the tenderness of rain—
Now you have come, how can I care for kisses
Like theirs again?

Sara Teasdale (1884–1933)
from "The Kiss"