Green Grass

The green grass of Waterkloof
The area in a certain era they dare not set foot
Now it provides comfort, a resting place
The centerpiece of their solace

The madames will not beckon
And on the grass I think they find peace
The house is already clean
The gardens pristine

No children
No families or friends
They left them all behind
In search of a means to an end

But will it ever end?
For generations since the land of the free
Their fortunes have turned but not much
Only now there is no pass and they can sit on the grass

Will You?

She looked in his eyes
And saw the longing
The twinkle that screamed 'I'm happy to see you'
And there was instant spark

Will you, she asked
Be the one to make me happy
Share my world?

Do I scare you
Are you sure you are up for this
What is it in me she wondered
That causes him to reach the way he does
For my hands
To hug my body the way he does

She is left wondering
Thinking
Wanting
Believing

To love again

My heart cries out to you
To make it joyous
To make me laugh once more
To make me grow excited at the thought of you

You have listened thus far
You make me smile
You make me laugh
You make me do things I had forgotten

You have claimed my heart
My soul
My being
You have claimed me

Am I scared I ask
How do I learn to love again
To be unrestrained
Be assured, loving you; loving me

The questions are many
The reasons are clear
I will love again in an old-fashioned way
I will give of myself and nothing less

I will not be held captive by my bitter past
For God knows why it didn't last
I have no regrets
I harbour no ill will
It was but for a time and time did not stand still

I will love again like there is no tomorrow
To do less would bring great pain
I will captain my heart
I will master my happiness
I will love you, the way it ought to be.

(c) Anneke 2010

Alone

How could it be
A lonely journey
A solace place
It's just me
Alone, once more

How could it be
I have so much
Wanting more
Grateful, yet unsatisfied
When will this longing end?

I return to myself
My inner strength
Gives me hope
Warms my heart
I'm not alone, anymore

(c) Anneke 2010

The Radical

Who the fuck you think you are?
Conform my ass
I'm no silly
I'm me

Conform?
That's not me
I speak my mind
As I would like
As I think
As I want to be

Status quo?
What's that?

I have the power to think
To express my own feelings
In the way I see best
With tact designed by me

I do not believe in command and obey
Let's discuss this
Let's reason
Hold a meditation

Believe me
I am the radical!

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And so I write

I find peace in the ability to express myself
To type the thoughts as they flow
My memory of a life
Of love
Of challenges
Of promises
Of pain
Of possibilities

I will write once again
As I express my innermost feelings
My love
My lust
My joys
My dreams

At times so incoherent
So confusing
I'm sad
I'm happy
I'm excited
I'm angry

And so I write
And write, once again